A month of Acheivement

So it has been a whole month since I started the gym in Ely. It has been an exciting and interesting month, and I am excited to share the happiness and achievement I have made since joining. I believe in my last post about it, I was a little unsure, but rather positive about how it would end up. I am now at the end of the 'empowerment' journey there. But do not despair because I am still going. I am still trying to make positive changes in my life and make this a valuable thing to do in my life. Lets start with the beginning of my journey. I had a appointment to measure everything. That included height, weight, flexibility and also measurements around my body. Unfortunately I can't tell you anything other than my weight. That is just because it has been a while, and I was not really given much time to take in these figures. My weight, I remember was 86.3kg. Now in Stone that is over 13. I kinda knew about this, and I was just hoping that I could at least try and reduce my measurements a little. You see, I know that you don't always lose weight here. They tend to focus more on body measurements more than anything. Also you tend to build muscle which weighs more anyway.

So a couple of days ago I had my final appointment to see how I was doing. And if I am honest I was completely surprised. Not only did I lose a little bit of weight. I also lost cms around my body. In total I lost 10cms across my waist, thighs, arms and hips. Now that may not sound like a lot, but I can assure you it is. My flexibility had also improved to a 7, when originally I think it was a 3 if I remember correctly. I felt accomplished and better in myself already. Half way through the 30 day programme I thought that I wasn't getting anywhere. I almost lost heart. I was afraid that I just wasn't changing enough. But I did. I have.

When I went in today they were touched by what I had said, and they asked if they could take my picture for the Facebook. I was honest and I couldn't believe that I had made it. They asked me to pose and then took my photo, along with my testimony along with it. Before starting I only ate one meal a day. I know that is bad. I just couldn't seem to get myself to eat more, and I was always "busy" and wouldn't make time to eat enough to cope with each day. I also happened to be on antidepressants. It's one of the things that kept me back a little, and the day I started the gym, was the day I stopped taking them. I struggled, and in one of the appointments, I went home and cried. I didn't think I could take it, and knowing that despite eating more, knowing that my diet was not fantastic I just felt why bother? I didn't let it stop me though. And I made it through. I didn't decide to go so I could say "I go to the gym". I wasn't doing it to lose weight or to workout. I did it because I wanted to do something for myself. To give myself something to do outside of home. I spent all my time in the house, that I was slowly starting to dread leaving the house for anything other than work unless I was with someone. I'm glad I did that. I also did it, to give me a reason to eat more than once a day. To try and control my body into having more to survive. And it worked.

I'm happy and slowly improving. I can't wait to see what will happen in 8 weeks time, when I go for my update. I hope to improve even more.

I hope you all try and do something for you. Even if it's doing makeup, starting a hobby or just telling yourself you are amazing. Whatever it is. You need to. Because if you don't look after yourself every now and again, you won't realise. I didn't realise just how unhappy I was making myself. I was stuck in a routine and couldn't change anything. And now I have motivation and I am pushing myself to get back to being happy again. JJ

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